busy busy busy busy busy busy
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Why I won’t be mom of the year April 22, 2006
I let my baby – my 2 month old baby – fall off of my bed this morning! I have no idea when she became mobile, but I had laid her in the middle of my bed while I got ready in my bathroom that was 3 feet away. She was quarreling some and doing the grunt she does when she’s getting hungry, and I was talking to her while I put on my make-up. Next thing I hear is a “thump” then a scream. She was laying face down on the carpet (thank GOD my bedroom is carpeted). I scooped her up and soothed her, and she seemed to be alright except for one thing…her birthmark just faded away. I paniced, thinking all the blood was leaving her head, called my mom, then called the dr. Of course I had to speak to his nurse, and as I was telling her about the port wine stain fading away, she said “a what?” in this you-are-an-idiot tone. I explained what a PWS was, how it always turns blood red when she cries, and how it was white right now. She said she was probably shocked from the fall, but told me things to look for to know if I should take her to the ER. Luckily she’s ok, no iffy signs or anything…just a “normal” baby! Plus the nurse redeemed herself in my eyes when she called to check on us about 30 minutes later. She even said she asked the Dr. about the PWS, and he said that her blood vessels probably just constricted from being so startled. I don’t care what it was, it freaked me out! Oh, but that’s not all I did to my daughter today…I scratched her forehead when I was getting her out of the Bjorn…you guessed it, she screamed bloody murder. AND if that wasn’t enough…we had church tonight (our spring revival) and I knew she would be hungry before church ended, so I made sure to pack a bottle for her. Sure enough she got restless, but when I went to warm her bottle I realized I had no nipple. Nice. I decided to leave church and run to my mom’s to get a nipple there, but as I was putting her in her car seat I bumped her head on the door facing. At that point I considered just driving myself to DCS and turning myself in. How many things can go so horribly wrong to one mom in one day? If tomorrow is anything like today I’ll never make it!
Why I won’t be mom of the year April 22, 2006
I let my baby – my 2 month old baby – fall off of my bed this morning! I have no idea when she became mobile, but I had laid her in the middle of my bed while I got ready in my bathroom that was 3 feet away. She was quarreling some and doing the grunt she does when she’s getting hungry, and I was talking to her while I put on my make-up. Next thing I hear is a “thump” then a scream. She was laying face down on the carpet (thank GOD my bedroom is carpeted). I scooped her up and soothed her, and she seemed to be alright except for one thing…her birthmark just faded away. I paniced, thinking all the blood was leaving her head, called my mom, then called the dr. Of course I had to speak to his nurse, and as I was telling her about the port wine stain fading away, she said “a what?” in this you-are-an-idiot tone. I explained what a PWS was, how it always turns blood red when she cries, and how it was white right now. She said she was probably shocked from the fall, but told me things to look for to know if I should take her to the ER. Luckily she’s ok, no iffy signs or anything…just a “normal” baby! Plus the nurse redeemed herself in my eyes when she called to check on us about 30 minutes later. She even said she asked the Dr. about the PWS, and he said that her blood vessels probably just constricted from being so startled. I don’t care what it was, it freaked me out! Oh, but that’s not all I did to my daughter today…I scratched her forehead when I was getting her out of the Bjorn…you guessed it, she screamed bloody murder. AND if that wasn’t enough…we had church tonight (our spring revival) and I knew she would be hungry before church ended, so I made sure to pack a bottle for her. Sure enough she got restless, but when I went to warm her bottle I realized I had no nipple. Nice. I decided to leave church and run to my mom’s to get a nipple there, but as I was putting her in her car seat I bumped her head on the door facing. At that point I considered just driving myself to DCS and turning myself in. How many things can go so horribly wrong to one mom in one day? If tomorrow is anything like today I’ll never make it!
A little help from my friends… April 21, 2006
I am addicted to TV, and all praise the wonderfully fabulous TiVo that I have had for a year now (what did I EVER do before then?). The trouble is, I have tried for months to network it into out home network (where I can make SB his very own Little Einsteins DVDs and get the 20 effin’ episodes off MY TiVO). My TiVo recoginzes the network, which is great, but my computer doesn’t recognize my “Now Playing” list in the TiVo-to-go menu. Any thoughts out there on what I can do? It’s driving me crazy!
Speaking of my TV addiction, I have (in addition to 20 Little Einsteins episodes)12 Veronica Mars episodes that I am trying to come to terms with the reality that I just won’t have enough “free time” (HA!!) to watch. The thing is, I have a problem with deleting them. It’s like that fear I have of dropping a possession from a really high place or into deep water. What would that be called? Insane?
and the biggie:
This is my 7th year teaching, and I have spent the entire time in the same Middle School. I have always had the desire to transfer to the area High School, because I truly believed I would enjoy the curriculum and age better. The thing is, all English positions were locked in by the same aging hags women who have been there forever. Now, 7 years later, a position has finally opened, and I don’ t feel like I want to go. Why? It has taken a LONG time, but I am finally in a situation where I am “teamed” up with some fabulous women (and 1 man) and we have TONS in common. We’re all relatively the same age, and have children in the same age range. I can’t help but ask why would I want to move into a department of women old enough to be my mother (in fact, most of the women at the high school have children that went to school with me). It’s been a big cloud hovering over me this semester. What would you do in a similar situation?
Now, WAKE UP…boring entry is over!
It’s tough April 18, 2006
I am having a tough time making it to work on time. This morning I even woke up 30 minutes earlier (woke the baby up to nurse!) plus I didn’t have to take SB to school, and still was late! How do you moms do it? Please let me in on a few pointers. In my rush, I tried to place the blame on my hubby…and I still think he could have done a few things to help…but it’s not entirely his fault. It also really doesn’t help to have your mom sitting there telling you over and over “you’ll never make it” “you’re going to be late” “you just need to get up earlier.” Here I am going to bed at 12:30 because I’m packing lunch, etc. so I don’ t have to in the morning; I can’t get up much earlier and function properly. To make matters worse, I forgot to change out my contacts and they are dry as a bone. (how dry is a bone, btw)
AND, this is the kicker, I had 15 bucks yesterday that has mysteriously disappeared. I don’t know if I left it in my car, or if the hubs took it (not at all unlikely), but I have literally 43 cents to my name today. Not even enough for a coke. Damn this day has already gone to pot. I miss maternity leave!
It’s tough April 18, 2006
I am having a tough time making it to work on time. This morning I even woke up 30 minutes earlier (woke the baby up to nurse!) plus I didn’t have to take SB to school, and still was late! How do you moms do it? Please let me in on a few pointers. In my rush, I tried to place the blame on my hubby…and I still think he could have done a few things to help…but it’s not entirely his fault. It also really doesn’t help to have your mom sitting there telling you over and over “you’ll never make it” “you’re going to be late” “you just need to get up earlier.” Here I am going to bed at 12:30 because I’m packing lunch, etc. so I don’ t have to in the morning; I can’t get up much earlier and function properly. To make matters worse, I forgot to change out my contacts and they are dry as a bone. (how dry is a bone, btw)
AND, this is the kicker, I had 15 bucks yesterday that has mysteriously disappeared. I don’t know if I left it in my car, or if the hubs took it (not at all unlikely), but I have literally 43 cents to my name today. Not even enough for a coke. Damn this day has already gone to pot. I miss maternity leave!
I blinked and 8 weeks passed! April 17, 2006
I mean, really, where did March go?? There’s nothing like having a baby to remind you how much you had gotten used to just having a 4 year old around the house. Mama was spoiled! Needless to say things have been a tad bit different for all of us, but we are getting into a rhythm now (thank you infant carrier!)
So much has happened since baby made 4. One thing that is consuming a ton of our attention is that “southern girl” (my blog nickname for the baby, SG for short) was born with a birthmark on her lower jawline (called a port wine stain)that we have had to see a pediatric dermatologist about. She will have a series of laser treatments starting this summer, and hopefully by her first birthday it will be mostly, if not all gone. My outlook on her birthmark is so much more optimistic now, after all these weeks, than it was for at least the first 2-3 weeks after she was born. I felt so reassured to meet with her Pedatric Dermatologist 2 weeks ago; it’s like a weight has been lifted. We go back for a consultation with the surgeon on June 1, who will then set up an appointment for her first treatment. If you are so inclined, please keep my sweet baby in your prayers. Hopefully we’ll only have to have the lesser number of the estimated treatments.
Today is my first day back at work. I can’t believe my maternity leave is over, but at least I only have until May 19 until I’m out for summer vacation. My mom is keeping SG until school gets out. THANK GOODNESS! It would have been much harder to leave her in someone else’s hands. Mom will even keep Southern Boy (SB) on Tuesday and Thursdays when he doesn’t have preschool. Of course all of this isn’t without a guilt trip every once in a while from her. What else would you expect from a mom?
Tennessee has been all over the news for the past month! Luckily we missed all of the bad storms in our area, but they hit VERY close to us. It is unsettling. And, what about that woman murdering her preacher husband! That was a wee bit too close to home, as well. You would not believe the media that was in that town for several weeks. I had to drive through one day, I think it was the day of her court date, and there were no less than 15 TV vans with big dishes on the top parked around the criminal justice complex. A strange sight indeed for rural Tennessee. THEN, as if TN hasn’t had enough tradegy, that bear killed and mauled a 6 year old and her mom and brother in East Tennessee. So very sad!
I really hate that it has taken me so long to finally put up a post, but I knew that all you moms would understand. Free time is a luxery those first few weeks with a newborn attached to your boob. Posts should become more frequent now, as well as pictures. Speaking of……….
