Just blah. February 24, 2005

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I am just so blah. I have no desire to do much of anything, even the things I need to do! I haven’t been posting because I don’t have anything to say. We did battle the stomach flu this past weekend. Hurrah! That makes 5 times that Chase has had a stomach bug in the past year. 5. times. I don’t think I’ve had it 5 times my whole life!

This week also marked another failed cycle of Clo*mid. My dr. says I am ovulating, so it should be a matter of time, but it is SO HARD! 15 months is a long time. (and please don’t berate me for whining about my 15 months when you’ve been trying for many years. I know it’s hard, no matter how long, but this is my journal…m’kay?) I am exhausted. I live in two week increments…counting days. Watching for signs, wishing for signs. I am just so sad.

Last night was particulary hard for me (read: depressing), and then I wake up this morning, get to the babysitters (late) only to be told that she has been trying to call me because she now has a stomach bug. Great. I have nowhere to take Chase because I’m about to be late for work, so I just bring him with me. I called my mom to come pick him up for me, so it ended up ok, but oh so very frustrating.

Well, isn’t this a holly jolly Thursday for you! Then ramblings of a whiney butt.

A rundown… February 17, 2005

The past two weeks have been a blur. I have barely had time to touch the computer (non-work-related), except to read a blog or two here and there every other day. Sickness has hit here BIG TIME! I have tried so hard to keep it out of my house, but damnit if it didn’t move in despite my close, personal relationship with Germ-X. Today begins a small “winter break” (Friday is an optional inservice day, and Monday is President’s day), but I already have visions of either a) having the evil stomach virus or b) cleaning up my 3-year-old after his bout with said evil virus. My mom (who kept Chase yesterday) and Tim both came down with it this morning. Bleh. It’s just a matter of time.

In other non-sick news, I had a moment yesterday in the car on my way to pick up Chase…When did I become an old fogey?
For example, I can’t tell you how many times I’ve said this school year “If you’d cut that long hair maybe you could hear what you’re supposed to do!” I might as well be saying “Get out of here you long-haired hippy!” because I sound. that. old.
Also, I hate, hate, hate teenage drivers! This coming from the person who had 3 speeding tickets before I graduated high school. I am forced to drive beside, behind, in front of them every morning to school and every afternoon away from school. They are DANGEROUS! Sometimes I fear for my life. IT’S THAT BAD.
And the sex…oh my, it puts a deep fear in my heart to think that these kids will soon (very soon by the looks of it) be having children of their own! In school with my child(ren)! I’ll have to bring birthday party cupcakes and feed the children of the children that I taught in class. *shudder* It’s already happening…I have 2 former students with babies less than a year younger than Chase.

I can’t believe I grew up. I still feel like that 16 year old girl with her brand new license, but it’s suddenly painfully obvious that I’m not.

Beleive it or not, I’m walking on air February 6, 2005

I feel like a superhero! I am just so proud of myself! I have finally, after trying since October (OCTOBER!), downloaded the mobile phone tools to hook up the ol’ camera phone to the PC. Of course I didn’t try every day, but you get the picture. (Ha! Picture! that I can now get off the phone! I’m easily amused…) Anyway, someone posted a tutorial on this message board, and it worked! Very odd since it used the exact same files I had downloaded (over and over); the key was to do things a certain way. (sortof ritual-like…while you download blahblahblah.exe scratch your nose and sing Mary had a Little Lamb…would it be bad if I’m only half joking? It was that bad). I feel so empowered now! Remember that sitcom with Tim Allen, Home Improvement? It’s like that “manly” call he always did when he he felt like a super man, “arr-arr-arr-arr.” Haha…I’m going to quit while I’m semi-ahead.

Beleive it or not, I’m walking on air February 6, 2005

I feel like a superhero! I am just so proud of myself! I have finally, after trying since October (OCTOBER!), downloaded the mobile phone tools to hook up the ol’ camera phone to the PC. Of course I didn’t try every day, but you get the picture. (Ha! Picture! that I can now get off the phone! I’m easily amused…) Anyway, someone posted a tutorial on this message board, and it worked! Very odd since it used the exact same files I had downloaded (over and over); the key was to do things a certain way. (sortof ritual-like…while you download blahblahblah.exe scratch your nose and sing Mary had a Little Lamb…would it be bad if I’m only half joking? It was that bad). I feel so empowered now! Remember that sitcom with Tim Allen, Home Improvement? It’s like that “manly” call he always did when he he felt like a super man, “arr-arr-arr-arr.” Haha…I’m going to quit while I’m semi-ahead.

Playing Tag February 3, 2005

I figured it was only a matter of time before this Meme came to me…So, this one’s for you, RubberSol:

1. Total amount of music files on your computer:
Oh, my…14.7 GB – about 300ish CDs

2. The last CD you bought was:
“Heavier Things” John Mayer

3. What is the song you last listened to before reading this message?
*blush* “Bizarre Love Triangle” by New Order

4. Write down 5 songs you often listen to or that mean a lot to you:
This was hard to narrow down…
• “Blister in the Sun” Violent Femmes – I still heart the Violent Femmes!
• “Interstate Love Song” and “Vasoline” – Stone Temple Pilots – These songs go hand in hand…they equally remind me of my college days )
• “Sweet Child O Mine” – Guns ‘N Roses I just can’t help it. I just love the old GnR. It stems from an early love (like 5th or 6th grade)
• “Crash” – Dave Matthews Band Something about this song…
• “Ice Cream” – Sarah McLachlan I adore this song, it makes me feel good. Well, I adore all of Sarah’s songs, especially any from Mirrorball.

I think I will tag…Half K, Helene, and Average Mom (girls, forgive me if you’ve recently done this one…I’m in a place that I can’t check)

While we’re on the topic of Music Memes, here’s another: